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Posts Tagged ‘fear of god’

Hello, my name is John p I’m 26 years old i come from a small town called Nanticoke.  I always questioned everything faith wise I was a alter-boy for many years.  I questioned way things were the way they are then sometime I believe in 2002-2003 something happen I was down and out I had lost the love of my life no she didn’t die but she told me we could never be together I cried for hours and hours I was headed to the air Force were I would sign up for 20 years serve my country and retire.. However this never happened.   it was just after my 19th birthday I was crushed after not being able too get this girl sick of life and didn’t know what to do next I was pretty much forced too move back in with my mom.  I told her I stay for a little while and then I would join the air force so I stayed there no job just staying there I took the air force time I failed I could have tried again but as I looked around and saw all those people my gut said this is not for you. I then told my mom that I would not go in to the air force and she was very angry. then something happened that changed the way I see life no I didn’t find NT not yet no… because at the time I was reading the satanic bible by Atonlevey and was still questioning everything… look back I knew I was breaking away from what other people saw… anyway my mom found this after searching the room I was staying she took some CDS and that book because my mom is deeply religious and has the fear of God she called the Police made up some story and had me put in a mental intuition for harming myself… I stayed there 24 hours I got out after returning home I was given a choice get a job and get out too get my CD’s back or stay and lose my freedom. I choose my freedom I got 2 jobs got out of that hellhole and moved in too a crappy place just too my stuff back… after a few months this postcard in Neothink postcard came in the mail not asking for anything but a stamp and a chance.